Wednesday, July 27, 2011

The voice of truth says do not be afraid

Today I was advised by the nurses to stay off the internet. I tried all afternoon yesterday to search baby sites for message boards looking for some sort of support. I feel guilty for being relieved that my baby is doing so well compared to all the other babies, but I think looking day by day, moment by moment, we forgot that there are so many things in the future we might have to worry about. I guess I wanted to find a baby who was born the same gestation as Gavin (27 weeks), who went thru exactly the same things and is now a healthy and happy toddler. But as the nurse said, moms of healthy babies aren't looking for support on message boards, they have no reason to. Will it inspire to me go back when Gavin is older and healthy and happy to offer my experience as support? Maybe, but I doubt it. Gavin truly has been healthy and strong. Not that it has been an easy road, and I know it's not over yet, but hearing others' stories has wrenched my heart and really shown me how truly blessed we have been. Gavin hasn't had a brain bleed, he didn't have an infection when we thought he might, he is gaining weight daily and his progress has been unbelievable! I might need reminding of this later when we have multiple doctor appointments or when the news isn't what we had hoped for as he grows, but it could have been so much worse. Anywhere along this journey things could have gone so wrong, but right now, we have a healthy, happy 31-weeker (as they call him in the nursery). I will continue to go day by day, moment by moment, celebrate his accomplishments, and take the bumps as they come.

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